The Longing has ended. I feel conflicted about it [spoilers].

I have just seen the ending of the Longing. My ending was the one where you wake up the king.

I felt that it might end up in the Shades death, maybe even in the world's death, but I have decided to stick with it anyway. I felt like that's the right thing to do. I didn't know for sure, and I didn't want to leave my home and my father behind based merely on a hunch. So I have stayed.

And now, everything is dead. Thanks to me.

At one hand, I feel terrible. I have killed Shade, destoryed the underground kingdom, maybe even the whole world. It's obvious that I feel terrible about it.

At the other, I kinda feel that I have made the right decision still. I knew the risks and I knew the information. I have decided to say faithful to my king and kingdom to the very end, bitter or sweet. If I knew for sure this will happen, I would leave, but I didn't. So I have stayed.

I feel horrible with consequences of my actions, but I don't think the decisions I have made were fair, based on what I have known.

Not that any of that will bring the Shade back.

I wonder what the last picture was supposed to mean. Shade, smiling at the king's hand. Is he alive, in some kind of afterlife? That'd be consoling.

But I will never know about that. I only know that everything is over and Shade is dead. Because of me.

That's quite a depressing ending.