bailed on my flight & trip :(

hi everyone. i did a post a couple days ago about my upcoming trip, i was meant to fly this morning but physically could not get myself on that plane. i had the worst panic attack ive ever had. i am now feeling so upset and disappointed in myself, i was so excited to go on this trip and its all been crushed. im making my way home but looking at flights for tonight helplessly. any support or kind words would be appreciated :( ive never been so so upset