kind a lost already

Hey ! I'm a 17 M

It's just a random midnight write and it's not a poem or something written work , it maybe is like I'm expressing thoughts and things going on my mind right now . There's lot of things going right now , I just no what's going on I even don't know what I'm doing it feels like I'm robot and just doing things regularly going college , gym , playing that stupid game I don't call this is a way of living but as a 17 what must I do . I don't have anyone to talk about it neither my parents or friends . I'm just a boy who is just losing everything. At first I lost my love and trust me it hurts the most to be not around your loved one , Just to keep my mind fresh I can't visit my friends daily because it's like 10 km travelling I can't do that , what I do is just write something bullshit pr play that game or do some artwork. And the fun fact is i use to enjoy it but right now it's like I'm losing interest in all I can't think any creative idea I can't write and I'm just getting worst and worst as player . Right now I'm literally stucked and thinking what to do . The thing which hurts me most is to losing my loved one and I lost her on very silly reason , talking about this things at 17 kinda sound I'm out of my mind but it hurts .

Yeah that's it I just wanted to share it !