Disgusting vulva :(

Anyone else have the stereotypical "beef curtains" vulva? It's something I've always felt insecure about but I used to think was relatively common.

And no, I don't mean having a slight outie, I mean having to tuck your lips in all the time so that they don't chafe. They're probably over 2 inches long if I stretch them. I know that all vulvas are unique and beautiful etc etc and I absolutely resent the unscientific and misogynistic connotations that come with this completely benign variation of this body part... But I still wish I were "normal"

It doesn't help that I've ruined my body (still fat but loose skin, deflated, saggy tits) and that I can't have a single characteristic that makes me feel desirable and sexy. Everythingist come with a warning sign and an extreme anxiety of being seen without makeup or without a bra or in shorts (lipedema) or unshaved (PCOS)...

I used to think my vulva looked different compared to that of most women, but not by much. I assumed that tiny innies are over represented in porn the same way that huge dicks are. A clear representation of social hierarchy and desirable features but also something that doesn't apply to most people.

Well, I recently went on a nudist vacation (don't ask) and I probably saw over 100 vulvas in a completely casual setting. A good 90% of those were the perfect little slits that I had convinced myself were so rare. A few girls had slight outies but still very much out of the "beef curtains" category.

I did not see a single person with my specific anatomy. It honestly made me feel like a freak, even though, again, I understand that there's nothing wrong with my body.

I just sometimes get hit by the improbability of all these undesirable characteristics showing up in one person. I'm trying to build up my confidence and improve my character and all that, but damn, I truly can't catch a break.

I don't even know what I would first change about myself tbh, and I'm against plastic surgery.

But, Jesus, would I have loved to feel normal on vacation just like all of my girlfriends :(