Coming back from isolation

TW/ Parent Death

Hello! I am a longish time lurker on this subreddit. I used to be able to do things like post online and interact with other people. I’ve definitely regressed in these past few years.

I would like to share a few small wins that I’ve had. I apologize if this isn’t allowed, and feel free to delete my post.

I returned to emdr therapy after taking a two year break. Transportation to and from my therapist was a nightmare. I did not feel comfortable with a virtual session due to privacy at home. I just moved to a new city and I am now a 20 minute bus ride to my therapist! We have reestablished our weekly sessions. We are trying to get me into another dbt group. I’m at a point in my life now where I want to be doing things like a dbt group and that’s huge for me.

My mom’s funeral didn’t send me spiraling. My mother is complicated. She was both the root of my trauma and someone who I love. We waited 6 months for her funeral. I expected myself to spiral and fall into someplace dark again. I was able to keep living after a week or so.

I found employment after two months of being unemployed! I’m starting my new job on Thursday and this’ll fix my financial problems.

I’m still having a hard time with being social. I’ve been forcing myself to post online or comment on things. Even if it’s stupid and even if no one cares what I say. I’m really trying to have a voice again.