Do you feel like you can’t trust your own emotions and that you need to constantly intellectualise everything to accurately understand?

Whether it’s knowing how dire or simple the situation is, knowing the predatory behaviours of people or whatever it is, I feel like I can’t trust my emotional brain at all because it gives me wrong results and never much helped me.
I can’t trust my brain if I feel love, crush or my first impressions towards someone because I only feel like I love people who resemble my narc psychopathic family. It’s so weird, my whole emotional or nervous system even betrays me.