venting and needed help

Sometimes i feel like a complete loser for always highlight freedom way too much in my early 20s, i still have a few more years to get to the age of 30 but i used up all of my savings money. I got laid off my previous job, so i only work a few freelance jobs (they never pay me monthly, i always have to wait a very long time). No stable income, no savings.
I know it’s not too late to start again, to change career and stuffs. But i feel very lonely and unmotivated. I feel like i let everyone down, and being such a burden. So heavy day by day. I tried to apply for jobs for nearly a year now and no luck.