Im tired

Why do everybody always leave why im always alone
Why do the perfect people i meet always leave everybody always tells me im a good person but they always leave why do i keep going back to friends that always forget my birthday why am im always there for everybody why do everybody always takes advantage im tired of feeling this way mom dad they always forgot about me my big brothers left ran and left everything to me i tried being there for mom and dad i tried being there for my little siblins in the end i was forgotten my fav cousin forgot about me they all always leave im never enough my dog left me my bestfriend left me they all always leave my grandma left me my heart feels soo tired of feeling this way i have trust issues when ever i meet new people but i always break and start trusting them then they leave they forget doesnt matter what i do i tried reaching out first and they have time. I always feel use yet they always tell me im the kindest person they have met but i guess im never enough. Why am i crying writting this. I miss my dog i miss my grandma i miss my bestfriend i know theyre in a better place and not suffering im just tired of bonding. Im never enough for anyone. Im just venting