Anyone else feel grief over how you look?

I’m a trans woman and I have a huge, hairy body and I hate how people treat me like this macho guy. I’m not really interested in cross dressing because I don’t think it would look good on me though I do shave my face, have long hair and wear women’s sunglasses.

People rub it in too, dude, sir, etc. Why can’t I be 5 feet tall and 100 lbs, not 6 feet tall and 300 lbs.