I feel wrong

Im a harpy eagle/mockingbird therian, I’ve gotten some comfort from doing bird calls and arranging nests but I still feel like it isn’t enough. I feel like I’m still not actually able to be myself. I just want to soar at impossible heights and call into the wind but I’m not an actual bird and I have a conservative Christian family. I feel like I have to mask constantly and trying to build a human life feels more and more like something is being ripped out of me. Is there any way that other avians can help me figure out how to at least mitigate these feelings and feel a little bit more free?