it's too easy to not notice how much time I waste with this.

I'm always planning exercise routines, pacing, looking at recipes or other food related content, obsessively counting calories in everything (even things I won't/can't eat), trying to find ways to ignore being hungry, bingeing, trying not to binge, purging, body checking, cooking things I won't eat without bingeing, losing my mind lol...

What do you mean it's already the middle of August? This recent relapse started at the beginning of May and I feel like no time has passed since then. I've accomplished nothing I planned in life besides ED related goals since then.

This is such a horrible and addictive coping mechanism, because it's so easy for me to get completely and utterly lost in it. It lets me ignore every thing else in my life. Like living in a daydream.