I forgot I have trauma with drugs and I decided to watch a bunch of videos of people greening out. I am now triggered and psychosomatically "greening out" as well.

It feels so horrendous. It feels as if I had done that as well and it's bringing me back to when I drank too much of a laced THC drink that almost killed me and I'm going through all the physical sensations and symptoms I had and how I felt. Usually when this happens, I don't know how to process it and I start thinking I was actually laced by something despite not doing drugs anymore for 3 yrs. I freak out so hard and I genuinely start thinking I'm dying. My triggers are talks of ODs, poisoning, watching people OD and do drugs, and watching people eat edibles and get blazed and many more. It's PATHOLOGICAL in me at this point as I've gotten over the emotional and psychological aspect but ever so often it creeps up on me and this is how it manifests. I fucking hate it. At least I know now thanks to therapy and meds that I'm just freaking out because there were no possible ways I got contaminated, it's just my brain overprocessing things and making me relive it. I will push through though. I will NOT be calling an ambulance or getting an Uber to the hospital every time ts happens. I'm not ODing, I'm not high, and I wasn't poisoned. I'm just overstimulated, severely stressed out/triggered, and sleep deprived. I will make it because if every other time I have, I can make it this time too.