I don't know if I am a good person. Am I welcomed?

I feel like everytime I post here I am making someone upset.

I kind don't want to come here, even if I have urges, at the same time friends I made here doesn't want me to self harm so I wouldn't do it if I had a small urges, although sometimes I get urges just thinking I'm a bad person.

I have no evidence anyone is upset with me, no one told me. I just been noticing things and it sets my brain of but I don't want to assume anything. I wish I knew if I was welcomed or not. If I am bothering people.

Maybe I post to much, maybe I talk weird, maybe I'm not kind enough.

It's no one fault but how I think atm.