Dad, I’m struggling again

I thought I was doing well. I was learning new mindset techniques to stop letting things bother me, I got my t-shot appointments back up again and I had a budget for once in my life. And I have two super fun events coming up these next two months. I even get to meet an actor I’ve been wanting to meet for a while! Things are in theory going great.

But then today, I slipped. I got DoorDash again and transferred some money from my already meager savings. I’m slipping. I’m mentally struggling even though I shouldn’t be. I have two amazing partners and an amazing cat but I can’t keep the apartment clean and can’t read as much as I need. It’s just a lot of can’ts and I need advice. Please. I’m safe, I promise. I just want someone to tell me this is normal or real advice or just something. Thanks for at least reading this. Even if you don’t respond. I appreciate it.