I failed my 25 year long celibacy journey 😔

Temptation was something I was struggling with a while and I ended up buying the cosmopolitan toys from Target this morning and ruined 25 years of waiting…

I really identify with being a good girl and glorifying the Lord,, but I truly could not stop my thoughts and I was afraid I would do something worse

I am not feeling as guilty as I thought,, still not great though and I thought it’d satisfy all the thoughts but it didn’t:/

If any one has fallen into a similar situation, do you know how I could improve? Because I thought this would be the end of it and I fear instead I only started something