21F4F craving my bf cheat on me

i crave the idea of seeing my boyfriend start to hide his phone after two years of being pretty open, going through his phone and adding girls on his snapchat to see if they will text him or send him photos but obviously wont happen.
Being an open cuckqueen isnt what i like its a turns me off if he knew and wanted to infront of me. The idea of a random girl from here adding him and i add her back while he is asleep, or i accept her follow request so she can dm him, gets me so turned on.
The idea that she thinks she is better than me and can take his loyalty with nudes and degrade me to him and he will allow it and even fuck him gets me wet and i feel myself pulsing and I cum to it when he is at work or back at home for the weekend.

When i ask to watch porn while he eats me out i say its for the sound and moans (Im bi) but its just girls using their rosetoy like we do and i imagine myself finding it in his saved chats. I am a jealous girl though lol.
Our sex life is good and good friendships all around, but i’d keep his secret to my grave and fuck i know he would regret it if he did, and i can fuck the regret out of him and make him think about me.

Maybe i am delusional but yeah my confession sorry guys.