Casual Sex and NoFap

Just sharing my thoughts here. 33 male, addicted to fapping for about 20 years and porn, 15 years.

I lost my virginity much later than many women think when they meet me (22); this is because I've been seen as very handsome and charismatic/charming since I was a little boy. But after a handful of failed relationships and sexual encounters, I thought "well maybe I will just back on NoFap, and try my hand at this. Surely, casual sex can't be THAT bad." Wrong!

While I enjoy sex a lot, casual sex or sex with a woman who I'm attracted to but don't feel a deeper connection with, feels like Live Action Masturbation. It's a shitty feeling to know that you can have sex with a woman, make each other climax multiple times, but crave something deeper only to keep repeating this same cycle with different women. It's even worse when she feels like she wants to see you again, but you know the right thing to do is break things off because you don't find her romantically appealing.

This is a lot of venting but I feel we can all relate to the ouroboros that is sexual desire. The constant searching for a new porn video, a new woman, etc. only to be left unsatiated, time and time again. It's sad but also poetic in a way.