Stop counting calories

Hi everyone,
I’m 25 years old and I’ve been struggling with bulimia for the past 2.5 years. I’ve tried so many things to stop the binge/purge cycle, but nothing seems to work. The longest I’ve gone without bingeing and purging was one month.
I’ve tried all the common tricks—drinking black coffee after meals, eating a piece of dark chocolate, brushing my teeth, chewing gum—but I always end up back in the same cycle.
I’ve also been obsessively counting calories for the past 3 years. Even on days when I don’t binge and purge, I have to log everything I eat immediately. If I’m out somewhere, I estimate the calories and have to write them down as soon as possible. If I can’t log it right away, it’s all I can think about until I do.
Do you think this obsessive calorie counting could be what’s keeping my binge/purge cycle going? My best friend suggested that I try eating intuitively, but that feels really scary and difficult for me.
Has anyone here stopped counting calories and successfully switched to intuitive eating? If so, how did you do it?