I can never confess and she never will confess

She’s probably my closest friend, if I were to confess and she says no I’d be distraught. We literally text on and off all day everyday. I’d need to be 110% sure she likes me and there is genuinely no way she does when you compare how she interacts with me vs the guy she asked out and went with to a dance and gave valentines gifts to, and then later said she didn’t like. It just sucks man. I’m just stuck hoping I’ll get an obvious sign or she’ll say she has a crush on me for some fucking reason. Maybe one day I’ll see her post something like this somewhere, that would be nice