Falling in love with sugar daddy

He is married with two kids. I don't think he would leave his wife. I tried to end things twice but he wanted to keep seeing each other. 1st time I suggested he try others. 2nd time I was just about to get my period and feeling moody about the dynamic. He's very patient and says he enjoys our time but doesn't know what he feels for me.

He doesn't like to text in between and when he tries he's just not really his tbh. He's very busy. But he tries to see me 3x a month. Before he used to send sweet messages after about my perfume and enjoying our time but then he stopped, he started showering after. And also making sure to leave on time.

He was texting me on his work phone but then got an app for me. I also found out today I'm not his first. He cheated twice before but it's his first affair even though he won't admit it's an affair. He liked boundaries and this idea he is compartmentalizing. Last time he told me he was doing work for a billionaire and the next week I suggested he raise my donation. He said it's untenable. I'm not sure if it's the truth or not because he does seem stretched and I rather keep seeing each other frequently than not.

Anyways, I'm not dating and I started to like him a lot and look forward to seeing him. I don't even care about the donation but it's nice for my debt. I just think maybe I'm falling in love. He says he has to maintain boundaries or it'll get messy. But I'm just sick and tired of that and I feel like I need more attention.

He's going away for a few weeks and I feel like I should find another to balance it out but I'm not even sure how or where because I don't want to go online or bother with even looking. We've been seeing each other almost 3 months now. I was hoping he'd become obsessed with me. I notice when I pick fights or act bratty then he will make me feel special but he still goes home to his wife and kids.