41 [M4F] #NKCMO

Ummm.... idk... I could really benefit from being with someone right now, like really bad. I know its a long shot, because who wants to care about someone going through a shit time. Let alone be in there company. If it does happen, will you just cuddle me/hold me, idc if i am a man seeking this from a lady. Do you know how hard it is, to go through life when I fuck up everything I touch, pass, meet, make, etc. Ruin it somehow or by being authentic I push people away. I mean why was a born with a heart like this. It sucks so much. I with my heart had a little bit of cold ingrained in it because I am starting to fucking hate life. I am so sick of feeling flustered, irritated, mad at everything that goes wrong. It is hard when nothing ever goes right, so its a never ending cycle of being chopped down and beaten.