I don't know what to do anymore

I don't even think I deserve to call this feeling I'm feeling depression. Maybe it's because Im and ordinary person with no real struggles or achievements, so talent or anything. But these past few years I've just been feeling something off. I started to feel like I didn't want to get up in the morning, no matter what I did I never actually felt happy, and it just started to feel like I was in some sort of darkness that ate me up.

No matter how much I tried, I could never actually get out of this feeling. Sometimes I'd feel happy and think I was in a good spot, but then I started feeling like shit and worse than before. More and More, I started to distance myself from others, because all I wanted was a break.....but I never got one. But i also felt bad for backing out on plans, commitments, and people, but my life just seemed to reach a point where I just couldn't feel anything.

The worst part it I tried everything suggested to get out, and eventually a year ago I told some of the people I trusted.. but they said that I'm not "depressed", but rather this is something that everyones faces, and a feeling that everyones been through. They told me that there are people with harder problems in their lives that aren't, and that Im just being overdramatic, weak and lazy.

While I admit I don't have any big problems, and only just small ones everyones has, and I don't even know why and when I started feeling this way, I slowly started to sink into this feeling of nothing. Where I just stoped trying in everything, because no matter what I did, I never became happy. And I slowly just start to question do I even just deserve to be depressed......or am I not even depressed?

I don't know what to do, all I want to do right know is just stop hurting and crying, but I don't know how. I'm sorry if this was just weird or ranty, or if I'm just being overdramatic, but I don't know ...just don't know.