Ever since I told him that his voice eases my nightmares, my boyfriend reads to me every single night. I am definitely marrying this guy.

I have nightmares a lot. Its stress induced apparently which makes sense because i'm a very stress prone person, if that even is a thing. But I also have a very traumatic childhood which doesn't help.

3 months ago I told my boyfriend that him just talking to me before bed or hearing his voice calms me down a lot. And I also happen to be a huge bookworm.

So this man buys a pile of books on my amazon wishlist and then ever since we got them all, he has been reading at least 5 chapters to me every night (well unless we're umm busy doing other things lol). He doesn't even like the genre that I mostly read (classics or dark romance) but he still does it. 6 months later and he STILL does it.

The amount of love I have for him cannot even be explained. I so hope I end up spending my entire life with him. I feel overwhelmed.

The reason why i'm using a throwaway account for this is, nobody knows (except my best friend) but I grew up in an extremely abusive home where I was verbally talked down to a lot by my mom. My boyfriend and I grew up next door and so he knew

I thought I was too broken to be loved but now here my bf is, treating me like i'm all he desires. Sometimes I just cry because of how much i love him. He makes me feel safe, protected. I don't think i'll ever love someone like this again.

Now, reason 2 why this is not on my main: I THINK I SAW HIM LOOKING AT RINGS. OH MY GOD AND I DON'T WANT TO RUIN THE SURPRISE BUT I STILL HAVE TO TELL SOMEONE. He was even eyeing the rings I have now, casually making jokes about ring sizes (he laughed but it wasn't even a joke lmao I love this dork).

I just feel so hopeful. Like, I didn't think i'd live past 18 you know? i thought that's when I would finally break and just end everything. But he was there for me and he picked up the broken pieces of my soul and put me back together.

I love you T <3

Thank you for reading