23F and feeling lost

Maybe I just need someone to say something nice or motivational but I’ve been finding it hard recently.

I’ve recently graduated and during that time I was also working full time.. lived at home and was a bit restricted so barely have a social life or any real friendships.. like there’s genuinely no on I could call if I needed to.

Last 2 years, I’ve lost 2 family members. Also just broke up with (well last 3 months) my now ex bf.

So now I’m single, no friends, no jobs and still at home. I genuinely didn’t think this would be my life and constantly wished I maybe had the uni experience and just put myself out there more.

I went travelling around Europe as a grad gift to myself which was fun but obviously reality kicks in. I’m currently looking for jobs and hopefully moving away from this small town.

I feel like I’m constantly reminded of what could have been. I don’t know what to do with myself let alone my life. Feel like I don’t know how to converse with people or pick up on social cues because Covid/no social life.

Really don’t want this to be the next 5 years again