I'm dumb with men cause of my bullying experience back in high school

I realize I've become defensive and go into fight or flight mode when im around men. I've been told of traits such as hard to get, snobbish and bitchy.

I'm seeing this is out of defense mechanism from my bullying experience in high school (almost 10 years ago btw) back when I was a feminine gay boy.. now im hot and fine I admit I struggle with men.

I checked myself when i see my trans girlfriends getting all this cutesy girly treatments from guys... getting flowers, taken out to dates and all that and first the first time ever i feel alone within my own community LOL