Sade sati

I’m Aquarius moon going through last phase of Sade sati. Last few years have been so intense that I feel like this is the new reality of my life. I fear that my life will always be like this now. I have become this serious person who cannot enjoy anything anymore. Things improved slightly in last one year but not the best, only with adjustments and compromises.

Now, from past few weeks I’m spiraling again. I heard it’s Saturn retrograde. I think I’m one of those who feel full pressure from Saturn be there a slightest change and I’m not able to shake it off. I feel depressed that I am unable to show love to my kids. I’m also going through Saturn MD - Venus AD and my Saturn is exalted in the 7th house. My Saturn MD will get over in 2036 makes me feel like my life is not going to improve after Sade sati. Saturn will continue to teach me and nothing will improve. I have lost hope and feel no joy anymore.

I’ve a job where people are toxic and I work a lot and don’t get paid enough. I have chronic health issues. My kids are very difficult to raise, I’m constantly butting heads with them. My husband is also stubborn, I’ve been compromising. I’m living with my in-laws which created further issues. The earlier few months of 2026, I put in all effort to find a new job and gave interviews but got rejected. I feel Saturn has me pinned down with no chance to move or grow. Just struggling to break free but nothing is working.