Overrcoming the bad things I did

I had anger problems and temper tantrums and hurt people. I hate who I used to be. I attempted suicide. I'm jealous of people who have it together and not did anything wrong. I dont want to be with bad people. I want to be with good people. I want to get out of debt and have financial problems. I'm seeking God again and thankfully have a Bible.

I'm going to a church wear headcoverings, celebrating wicked Pagan holidays, like Christmas, stop wearing pants and find a Christian husband. Women who go to college and work are going to hell because it's a feminist agenda. Women are to be keepers at home, get married have children, be keepers at home, and to be silent.

I'm going to the straight and narrow path and be submissive, obey God, and do everything my husband says.