Single

By choice.

But also because I knew I did not have what it took to be a partner to anyone. At least not to my own standard. And until recently I lacked the ability to even articulate that to anyone. So I reminded myself as much as I could that I didn’t want to be married. That I didn’t want a relationship. So that I wouldn’t bind my self to the performance of me.

I’ve met many people who don’t even care about the difference. Just as long as you are performing the behavior.

how does that not feel empty?