i cant decide between these two godman mbtis

I relate to both of the descriptions-

I then look at the cognitive fucntions and again relate to them to varying degrees, which is normal as we all experience the 8 functions , its just a matter of preference or that is how i heard it.

I think i am a thinker- i love philosophy, analytical thinking and study maths and physics at college. But i am most feeler out of everyone i know. I can be rather spontaneous and extremely empthatic at times. i dont understand human interactions very much so - so it figures

what else can i say, hmmm i love analysing people , things actually just about anything

i love disappearing, everyone who has ever known has lost contact with me i disappear and never leave a trace - for a lot of reasons i get angry, overwhelmed, or just crave peace

i love learning that is my only passion in life. i talk alot for an introvert which is very odd to me, i like puzzles , chess is fun at times. i like learning language. i listen alot to other people, but at times i have random outburst of talking which i regret later on maybe just like this one haha lol who knows.

i have an anything is possible mindset , when i was much younger everyone told me i was wise for my age idk.

in terms of cognitive functions hmmm- i think the only one i truly relate to is Ti but infj also have ti. si is interesting but i dont much about it , i do sometimes see se in me maybe thats ne that i am confusing it with idk. ni seems so coll but idk .

any idea if you read my ramble- and holy shit these mbti flairs have some fkn awesome ones hahahah