I just need to vent

My baby is 23 weeks old and over the last week we’ve had a nasty flare up of silent reflux (which I suspect she has had for a very long time). She dramatically dropped her intake over the weekend but was still hydrated and has gained weight really well so those couple of days drop wasn’t a huge concern but needed to be sorted sooner rather than later. We went to the doctors Monday morning and they prescribed infant Gaviscon which honestly has been a life saver. She seemed so much happier and isn’t arching like she has been. Now she’s constipated so that’s causing discomfort, she’s got lactulose to help soften it but it’s hit and miss if she’ll have any of it as she just spits medication out, and trust when I say we’ve tried all the tricks and tips to get her to take it. Sometimes most of it goes down, other times she spits basically the lot out, mainly with me, I just don’t seem to have the knack to give her medication. It’s just been so long seeing her so uncomfortable and has always been one thing, get it sorted, then another thing pops up. First it was colic, colief sorted that and has continued to be a life saver, then it was gassiness so we used infacol which really helped until she started spitting that out too, would never take gripe water so give that up. She always arched her back but we were just palmed off as her being a gassier baby as she was gaining weight but I think she’s always suffered with it and it’s now just massively flared up. She’s been such a happy baby despite this but she’s just so uncomfortable and she gets so upset now. She isn’t a crier but the last week you can just tell she’s just uncomfortable and it’s breaking my heart. We’re trying so hard to help her and we just sort one problem then end up with a new problem and I just feel like there’s nothing we can do for her and it just hurts me. I just want to take it all away for her and there’s just nothing I can do and it’s really starting to get to me, I just see her cry in pain and I can’t help but cry with her because o can see how uncomfortable she is and we’re trying everything we can and it just isn’t helping her and I don’t know what else we can do for her. I just needed somewhere to get it off my chest because it’s breaking my heart.