Does anyone ever feel EXTREMELY confused and when you tell people they just think you’re anxious?

Hey everyone, so lately I’ve been having an extremely weird experience. I’m very very disconnected so okay I’m dissociative, but if I explain to my therapist that, she doesn’t see it. I tell her that I’m freaked out by the goal shifts and values shifts and they are extreme, like “I’m going to go live in nature the rest of my life because it’s the only way to ever find peace” I go online, post about advice on how to do this on reddit, make plans to start going on hikes to “warm up” I guess to the idea. It’s right.

Then it’s like “wth, that was NOT me.” But I get the response “ugh yeah I hate regretting decisions” uhh yeah me too but this is a lot more than “ahh wasn’t thinking” this is me actively trying to reshape my identity in a day and then a few hours later I’m like “cool… wtf was that?” The fact that I will literally feel like I’m screaming from the rooftops for someone to hear me and no one days makes me question why I even try to go to therapy or try in life at all.