i wanna move out

hi! here I am a college student that just reach my sophomore year; yippeee. I spent my summer break just to slack off in my parents house. Yeah, I'm aware of how it pretty awfully sounds. I used to really homesick when i was in my freshman year. When the semester is over i straight paid a ticket for go back to my hometown even after the last exam was the record. In this summer break, i kinda got sick since i locked myself in my house, including right now. Just an hour ago when we were ate a dinner, they suddenly mention how useless i am to just waste nearly trimester just curly on my own bed. They blame myself for the sickness i get, complained me about i didn't do anything in the house unless they ordered me to, WHICH IS i always obeyed despite i sometimes procrastinate it BUT I NEVER REFUSE WHAT THEY TOLD. And when i always try to talk something against their words or tryna to defense myself, they labeled me as a rebel, disobedience. Furthermore, when i still reply them of what they labeled me, they'll do something childish(i won't say it) where I'm gonna look like that I'm the problem, yeah it's guilt tripping and the worst part is i took the guilt with aware.Its practical a tradition,iidk if its descending or nor. At the dinner i wanna repeat the same thing but i succed shut myself, listening their words painfully while munching some chicken katsu😋. I try to ignore it but no, I've holding it like forever. The college still half a month but i wanna order the ticket like tomorrow directly. I used to told them when i could live by my own, especially at the overseas, I'd bring them live out of this country. The times where i wanna extend my loved staying at the house in each college break now is over. Thank you for being the reason i shouldn't be homesick.