How do I get rid of this guilt

I'm 28 F, now dependant on my fiancé and living with him in a different country, still struggling to find a job. It's been 1 month since i am financially dependant on him for everyday life and I cant let go of this guilt of being a parasite and absolutely good for nothing. Are there any tips I can use to let go of this feeling?

P.S my Fiancé is a sweetheart and never once ever brought it up in a convo. But somehow i feel otherwise that he is becoming annoyed that I'm dependant and reducing his several wants (in terms of buying)