Am i the only one who feels a ping of jealousy when I see others getting everything so casually, which I want so dearly?

I have thought about it and now I feel no shame in accepting that I do jealousy when I see others getting all the things which I wanted. Maybe it reflects on what I am lacking and what I wish to achieve.

Their win is not my loss but it feels that I am losing to myself. Seeing the makes me feel like these are the things I will never get in life and all my life I have to be jealous of the things I won't get or achieve.

It's not about the things they are getting it's also about the things they achieving when they are putting efforts. Why am I not achieving anything even when I am also putting effort, why does my effort feel like I'm going nowhere?

It hurts ,it does. I am also putting efforts why am I still stuck depressed and not getting anything I want?

But again I know like isn't fair and yes what can I do about it. I just wanted to accept and say it out loud that I am jealous.