Samantha

I opened up to my cousin about being sexually exploited and raped.

The first time I told her about getting molested by a family member closer to her she literally laughed and giggled just because my assault had to do with feet. My molester was a few years older than me but a legal adult and I was still a minor, he would physically over power me and started doing things to my feet, no matter how hard I kicked or scream.
My sibling even whitcnessed it and watched me struggle before leaving the room and only helping when I was looking at them at a certain a with disgust. They also been assaulted growing up so I saw it as my sibling watching me get what i deserve for not going through the same? That’s another thing…
My cousin who I thought to be better though, wasn’t.
She laughed and even stated “sorry it was kinda funny, like ewww that’s gross your toes?!” Like what’s gross is that they’re as a whole family is defending a predator named Jeffery.

She also said things like “well isn’t your fault for being there in the first place?” Mocked my past relationship and seem to enjoy my breakup.
When I told her and apologized if my behavior seems odd because I was still processing everything that happened for the past few years of being exploited. I told her I’m sorry if I seem off with other men. She went off to tell my other family members and call me a whore and said I’d rather be sucking dick when we were evening chicken wings.
I like to bit the bone end pieces and eat the whole meat part, nothing to waste. I’m poor, they have a house and can afford food and 5 cars. I’m going to eat like an animal. Especially when I was drinking moldy water and eating off my hands for the last 3 years…

I told her how I had to survive doing sex work because my mom wanted me to be one since I was 8-10 years old (mom got upset because I waited until I was 18)
Samantha then stated that she thinks all sex workers are whores..
Indirectly calling me a whore to my face because she’s too much of a coward to actually full cowardly say it. Which is also ironic con her very best friend and most of her friend group does sex work as well.
She mocked me for going to therapy and smoking weed and calling me an addict when I use it as medicine for my cptsd and she smokes for fun…
Besides going to therapy in secret because she can’t even open up to her own friends or family
Showing how much of an insecure fucking coward she really is💝
Saying she hated people like me and wanted to beat my ass and when I confronted her saying I will do anything for self defense she started playing victim , using my own mental health against me saying “well you hear voices ! I never said that!” Gaslighting dumbass bitch doesn’t know how my internal psychosis works like pleaseee educate yourself on mental health. She was straight up trying to use that to gaslight me and it made me look her entirely different. Kicking me out and convincing others to kick me out because you’re too much of a fucking coward and too insecure to actually deal with your shit without putting me down when I already said I’m at my limit. This whole family was really trying to get me to commit suicide and homicide.

I have cptsd, chronic depression and anxiety , Suicidal and homicidal IDEATION (so I have no actual intent in doing anything)
Plus I like studying forensic/social therapy which helps aid those who actually do enact.
I was def aware enough to know I was reaching my peak , I knew that if I over filled my cup my psychosis will act up again, in which the first day at that house it did.