Just a morning vent to the void…

HLF turned LL4U because of my husband’s porn addiction and years of rejection whenever I would initiate. I discovered his addiction last year, and since then my desire for him has plummeted.

We have spoken at length about his porn use, often and openly. I have tried to be a safe place for him to come to when he feels tempted to relapse. He is now making more of an effort to initiate intimacy…something I spent years pleading for. But I find myself struggling internally, as I feel emotionally and physically numb toward him. After so many years of feeling overlooked and unwanted, I am finding it difficult to feel attraction.

I truly want to desire my husband again. I just don’t know how to bridge the gap after such a long history of dishonesty and rejection.