im a loser , I will quit

Hey there, Male 25 here
I think if I just get this off my chest , I’ll feel better
I watch porn almost like it’s a tv show , and I jerk off every two days since I don’t have the energy for daily wack offs anymore thankfully
But I just feel like a loser and it’s eating away at me and that what if I end up being a monster or a guy that people are afraid of and don’t want to be around because my energy is too horny and sexual . I do feel a bit of a new chapter in coming , because I’ve decided to go back to college and get a degree so I can get a better career. My hopes is that I will be able to make friends, because I don’t have any so I don’t go anywhere and that’s where the addiction kept growing and it being few years since talking to women , and I’ve gotten ugly and fat so I feel my life is going downhill and I know this isn’t me and my past self would be very disappointed in me now

Any advice is appreciated, I downloaded the sober app yesterday and im one day clean , I will post everyday to keep me sane