"If this solar system, in which we are, evaporates tomorrow morning, no one will even notice it in this Cosmos. It is that small, just a speck. In this speck of a solar system, Planet Earth is a micro speck. In that micro speck, the city you 

live in is a super-micro speck. In that, you are a big man. That's the problem" From death, by sadhguru. 

Yesterday I was arguing with my father over many things which aren't improving, the things over which I have worked but it still didn't yield desired results. From early childhood I have been very ridiculously calculated about the steps I took in my life. For instance I was someone who used to pack the perfect backpack for the trip, charger pin, sanitizer and wet wipes should be in different pockets, every supplement that I take should be there in my box, unless how would I survive? Every time I missed the feeling of perfection, the perfection which is a myth, I got insecure about life and death. 

Initially I was a humble and introverted type of child, because I was conditioned like this, even today my family believes that I don't speak much, yes I don't but I do when it comes to expressing through words, debate and conversations. I held respect as the most crucial thing to sustain my life, I can't live in denial and disrespect, I can't sustain a life where I'm being degraded or degrading anyone for no reason. There's a hindi line which I have always loved and it defines my character as well.

"कठोर इतना की मृत्यु भी सह लूँ, 

नाज़ुक इतना कि शब्द भी चुभ जाएं"

Holding our personality and being over conscious about it might be arduous because not everyone understands the intensity of the little things which can affect us in any way, but gradually we evolve, and the idealism loses its charm, though for me it still exists, where I can't expect a life without dignity, dignity of words, behavior and expression as well. 

Sharing some words. You can read.