My crush suddenly cut me off yesterday and I think she’s in a bad spot, what should I do ?

Talking briefly .. I’m 19 from a very conservative country, so for the longest time I’ve always denied my identity and brushed off the possibility of being a lesbian .. I’ve tried having crushes on boys as a kid, I considered myself bi for a while and then I finally accepted last year that there’s no way I’ll look at men the same I look at women and that’s finally where I felt safe feeling for a woman that is in reach and not just a tiny little crush from afar .. but someone who I know is also a lesbian .
She’s 23 and exactly my type .. checking all my boxes and sharing the same experience as mine, thoughts about relationships and what she is looking for in a person is exactly me .. so for three months now we’ve been “ friends “
Except that friends don’t sleep together on call ..
Friends don’t gift flowers like that ..
Friends don’t talk about how desirable I am to them .. what would they do to me .. how much I distract them
Friends don’t ask to see your face because they miss it every single time you talk .. and surely don’t call you kissable .. or get jealous and angry towards your other friends .. or remember details about your eyes, your laugh .. they don’t call you just to hear your voice at midnight .. etc ..
With the way she kept at least two hours to talk to me despite being a very busy person , I thought that we definitely are something more than friends , I never felt comfortable sharing this much with someone and she grew on me very quickly over the past few months ..
We were talking normally yesterday before she had to hang up at what’s like 2AM because someone else called her , and suddenly at 7 AM she woke me up to ask me if I had feelings for her,
I was sleepy, so I answered “ I like who you are as a person but I still don’t know enough about you to say I have feelings for you .” Since we’re kinda long distance .. and I already told her I don’t feel safe falling for someone unless they have feelings for me because I don’t wanna end up hurting myself over potential ..
So she said “ I don’t want to hurt any more people, I know how this is going to end so I have to go “
I argued with her about it a little, that she is projecting some past experiences on me, that I’m fine being friends only and I don’t have higher expectations, I just feel safe around her ..
I teared up talking about why is everyone behaving like this, she told me its nothing personal and that I’m a good person and I shouldn’t cry about such matters whether its about her or making people stay , she is just tired and wants to focus on herself instead , but I highly am doubting that it’s fully to focus on herself because why did you say that you feel like you’re looking in the wrong place ?
So i asked her the same question , whether she had feelings for me or not since she thought I do , and she has been louder than I am with affection .. and she said no .. not at all, I’m looking purely for a friendship with you .
And after a little more arguing i hung up because I started crying .
She blocked my socials except for one ..
So after processing and being more awake I texted her there about my feelings, questions and why she’s behaving that way .. that I don’t do goodbyes the way she does them and I don’t want us to be strangers even if we’re not friends .. we both almost did nothing wrong for it to end with blocks .. we were just fine yesterday, I told her I wanted to talk with her in a good manner for one last time at least .
She sent me a screenshot of someone threatening her that they don’t want to be with her but they wouldn’t give her up for anyone else , and they would send her partner’s head to her house as a gift and disappeared , it worried me sick so I kept texting her if shes safe of ok and whats happening with her, she only replied that she doesnt wanna be heavy on me and I have enough to worry about, that I am good and I don’t deserve bad things
As I was worried I kept on asking about her and whether she’s okay . She apologized hours later for not replying and told me that we’ll talk when she has free time
Its been a day . i am worried and I couldn’t sleep well thinking about her
I want to hear anything just so I can move on with my life , but I can’t when i think that she is struggling ..
The more I’m left without answer, the more anxious I get and this is not helping .. I wanna call her and text her again but I don’t wanna over do it
How can I calm down ? How can I accept the sudden end like this ? Is she actually in a bad situation or she’s just telling me to leave her alone ..
I’m lost .. and it hurts my heart since I only felt this much for a very few people in my whole life .. what should I do ..