Pta ni kaisa feel ho rha (Long post ahead)!! 🙃

So talking about me, let's call me A...

So, I was an above avg or topper from very beginning like from beginning to 10th I had never scored below 90%, then naive me thought let's take pcb and prepare for neet..

So Dumbass me took an offline coaching in 11th & prepared for neet...which was 30 kms from my home...In 11th I used to up & down daily...and what not...bt I never thought of leaving neet....11th mein mocks mein 550 around aate the...theory mein bhi 83% aaye the...Ab ye Mr A ko naa 11 wali mohabbat Hui na kuch hua..I used to incline myself towards study 😭...thik h koi naa 12 aaya room liya coaching k paas aadhe pet pe survive krta tha things got worsen got chicken pox on Nov when 3 months were left for boards and 5 months for neet...jese test recover hua...wapas pdhna chalu kiya 12th mein 30 din baad mock diya toh 336 marks aaye..lg gya tha ni hone wala... boards ka padhne laga boards mein 88.4(12th cbse) aaye...neet 2024 mein 533 aaye (I was okay ki 500+ toh hn)

Started preparing online for neet 2025

Sbne socha ek aur mauka dete hn gave neet 2025..aur main chutiya tha mocks mein kabhi 600 kam ni laya, pw mein power grp, air batch mein tha....aur neet mein 462 aaye..3 mahine depression mein tha...I overcame all!! Was okay... thought let's give it one more try I did!! Started preparing again..iss baar mocks mein allen major mein 550 avg aate the....pw mein 630 around avg...iss baar bhi I was in air grp... happened neet 2026... Got 625±5..was happy ki sb nrml rha toh 30K aa jaegi asmc mil jaega!! Bt kismat pe pura bharosa tha wahi hua re neet hua...I did my best got air 6.5K in iat'26...re neet mein 532..and yes fir ni hua!!

Pta ni bgwaan kis paap ka fal de rhe..yaar meri family bhi bhot okay h...we are okay type not very rich..

Maine ye sb k chkkr mein na kabhi gf bnayi na kuch kra ki meko jaldi successful hona h aur bgwaan utna hi delay kr rha...

I don't know kya hoga kya ni.... Fas chuka hoon daldal mein...

Seeing my few frnds of mp getting seat gov at same marks...some of my up frnds getting selection...(Who used to same as me in mocks)

Smjh ni aata ho kya rha mere saath...Ik meri kismat khrab h..

Sorry for this long post...bhot bkwaas feel ho rha...

Nikalne walon ka 1st attempt mein ho jata & here me...3 baar baad bhi ni hua.