I dont get friendship man ☹️☹️

Im like VERY introverted and have been since 5th grade i had absolutely no friends until 10th grade ended and just sat alone most of the time and im in a new college and all but its JUST SO HARD TO SOCIALIZE idk how it comes to people naturally i talked to like 2 girls but they're honestly just class friends to sit next to and we dont do anything outside of class and i made another friend whos super cool but has like a bunch of other friends to hang out and puts them on priority and i cant hang out with all of them BECAUSE IDK ANYONE its so bad bro when i try to talk to new people it comes out like this mumble and they end up just not hearing me, that or i think they'll think im annoying and desperate as hell and i end up just, sitting there awkwardly 💔 what the hell