I have nothing to live for

Im just so tired. Nobody cares about me. Nobody wants me every time. I think a guy wants to actually get to know me they make it weird or they don’t respect my boundaries or they don’t care about my mental health or they think I’m too intense and abandoned me with ghosting me.

It’s like… something everyone keeps telling me I should be used to, but I never am.

Because I don’t even know what I wanna do with my life. Im 19 and ive always struggled with suicidal thoughts for years. Nobody cares about me, and every

“You just need to go outside more.”

“I care about you!” (While they clearly make it apparent they’re just making it about themselves and their god complex)

Is just lies apon lies.

Because nobody cares about what Ive or anyone else have gone through. Like my entire friend group abandoning me over the summer or the several guys who couldnt care less whether i eventually killed myself.

I’ll just cut myself now and forget the world exists now.