Should I stay or should I go?

So I moved to a new city 4 months ago. On the surface some would say everything is going good so far. I have a decent apartment in a nice neighborhood. I make about 145k a year (no bonus or future raises) for a role that I think I’m doing alright at but doesn’t often get this salary. I’ve been doing activities, sports leagues, day parties, social meetups, some hiking. Haven’t gone on too many dates (I’m a single guy) but could probably ramp that up and have finally made a friend or 2 that I’m talking to a bit more. So good right?

Well the problem is the reason I moved down here was sort of for a girl I’ve been on and off with for almost 4 years now. I won’t give yall the play by play but we’ve been in this silly love triangle thing and at this point it’s probably over between us. I went thru some heavy depression last summer due to this situation but we kept seeing each other. It culminated with me trying to get a job in her city and getting 1 super fast. At that point she wasn’t willing to commit to me but I had this job offer on the table so I said fuck it. We kept seeing each other while e I was down here but she never committed to me and the uncertainty was driving me nuts. It pretty much continued my depresive/mopey state. I know now that I just need to cut her off but am pissed I put myself in this situation because truthfully I really just wanted to travel and explore. The drama from last summer just put a bad taste in my mouth and I just wanted to be free. Now it’s Déjà vu all over again and I just feel restless at work.

My coworkers are chill and my manager is hands off. I get 2 days remote but I do IT and I’ve realized in the last year or so that I’m lukewarm at best for the field. That combined with just a general feeeling of a lack of purpose outside of work, no deep connections at the moment just make it hard for me to focus at work even though I’m doing what I have to do.

I end up thinking all the time about just fucking off to Europe for a month and being free from all of this. But I hesitate in part because I’m 31 and a half and feel like i really need to lock in now and also give this city more of a fair shot before I leave but I’ve always wanted to solo travel. I’ve been debating putting it off to next year but part of me is afraid of having to continue the next 8 months feeling this way but also it may be harder to leave at that point.

What are some of your opinions?