Need some help today (37 days)

Hi, I've been telling a bit about my journey, and mostly it has been good. I've even been through pretty bad anxiety episodes and I coped pretty well without smoking again, not even thinking about it as a possibility, but today is really bad.

It's not that I want to smoke. It's not that I miss it. It's that I just had a really bad trauma response related to my family and I am really, really struggling to stay in this emotional state.

The only good thing is that I'm gonna have to drive in a couple of hours so I won't smoke just yet for sure, but I feel like I need some stength to make sure I don't smoke when I come back in case I am still feeling this way, because I am freaking out a bit.