Lost what intelligence I had

About a year ago and some change I fell into a depression the first time I’ve really been depressed in my life honestly.

Ive gottens little better I’m starting to learn how to ignore the negative thoughts in my head. One thing that hasn’t returned to me is my intelligence, I wasn’t walking around being a genius or anything but my social skills have just TANKED. Besides social skills I’ve lost all independency and self confidence.

I’m at the point where doing grunt work I still need very specific instructions. I can’t do the simplest things without messing up for some reason. I’m so scared and nervous all the time I haven’t been able to learn anything new in so long I’ve just been on autopilot it sucks so bad 🤦‍♂️

bro I could be depressed the rest of my life I don’t care I just wish my mind didn’t go with me.

It’s so hard to process words and sentences and try to learn things. I actually come across and the dumbest guy you’ve ever seen I don’t get what’s wrong with me. How do people go through so much, addictions , problems that are way bigger than mines, etc but keep a normal brain??