28 [NB/TM4T] [UK/online] pushing myself out of my comfort zone in search of physical connection and intimacy

There is a very long post on my profile as well as some photos (including nsfw) because I had no idea what to say here. I’ve never quite grasped the ability to sell myself like a pig at a market.

I go back and forth with myself very often about what I want and what I should do about it, but at the core of is a desire to touch, to learn someone’s body and give pleasure, to experience a human connection.

I am some weird amalgamation of demisexual yet hypersexual, sex positive yet shy and insecure of my appearance, fascinated by other’s sexuality yet disconnected from my own. I have a high libido, love kink and fetishes and learning what gets people off, but arousal is often disjointed for me. I’m not sure if any of this makes sense to anyone else tbh, it often doesn’t make sense to me.

I am not seeking pure hook ups, frankly the idea of being with a total stranger makes my skin crawl, but I am open to a FWB situation whether this be online or ideally in person. I can travel throughout the UK and for the right connection would travel further.

If you read my other post you will learn that I am entirely weird, intense, often obsessive and depraved. I would love to meet someone who can match my freak as they say, but I have also accepted that that might not happen in the way I want it to and so I’m open to any kinds of physical intimacy. I want to experience this aspect of human existence that has been beyond me so far.

I have some other hobbies and interests, mostly horror and being in nature, and I have a lot going on trying to improve myself, my education, and work towards a life I’m happy with.