Please help me, PLEASEEE!?

I met this girl in college, it was our first day we went together and were together the whole time, done with tho morning stuff there was a event in the evening, we both decided to attend it tiger and also get a hit drunk, she was the one who brought all the alcohol coke and everything i didn’t even pay for anything, it was her plan to get drunk and after that all the campus stuff was done we sat in my car

i treated her with respect obv but i feel like i could’ve done better, we sat in the car she told me that she was drunk like 10 times and i asked her if she was okay like 6-7 times 😭, she even hold my hand with both of hers to make me see how warm she is, she even patted on my head, she was leaning forward towards me and i did absolutely nothing, i was driving and nothing else, please i hate myself for it i cant get this out of my head i want to killmyself

she was the most stunning most gorgeous woman i have ever seen in my life, it was the first time someone actually showed me such affection it was the first time i felt like someone likes me, i want to cry how could i mess this up, she is so, idk what to say i cant put this in words, she did everything and i did nothing i hate it i absolutely hate it, i want her to know that even i could do something to make her feel loved or not even loved, love is a big word, i want her to feel i also care about her, i can also put in the efforts

ik this is probably wrong but i have this urge now that unless i kiss her, unless i get what was meant to be i will always feel this hole inside me, please please help me how do i deal with this, is this okay, i have no words for myself how could i fumble this hard, i have never kissed anybody never been in a relationship nothing, im 19 and i feel like this was the day im my life which was meant for me and i messed it up,

please help me, please take your time to read all this?