Mental Health & Pregnancy

Hey all! I'm 25 and slowly navigating SMbC.

I've currently been pursuing SMbC by IUI - currently in the process of getting all my testing completed for my fertility clinic. But my support system is making me feel bad for wanting to carry myself instead of surrogacy. My mind is currently telling me to stop my SMbC path indefinitely.

I suffer from mental health issues, monitored by a psychiatrist with prescribed mental health medication. My fertility clinic doctor informed me to discuss with them about pregnancy, medication dosages and a clearance letter that I've been mentally stable / medication dosage wise. Sounds good, right!? But no.

Recently, a doctor said to me and my mother (she's my support at doctor's) that it would probably be better for me to have a surrogate or adoption due to my medication changes, mental health, etc. Having to stop medications, change them, PPD, etc.

Now my mom is trying to push surrogacy on me after that conversation, asking why i'm "adamant" to do it myself when I talk about my testing, doctor appointments, etc. Especially about my appointment I recently scheduled for psychiatry, to discuss my medication and pregnancy. She doesn't even want to be there anymore.

My mind is telling me to call it quits no matter how badly I want this. It's like I'm being told I can't carry due to my mental health / medication even if i'm told I can by my psychiatrist or fertility doctor.