Family beef and drama ig

So like long story short my mum has been abusive since I was 5 or even younger (I forgot) forcing me to be religious. My dad would say its ok since he treats me ok. A few years ago I called the cops on my mum for abuse. I showed them proof which they said they wouldn't show anyone cos i was worried it would have a backlash on me and my family would hate me. They show my mother the images in jail. My family were like to my sister (cos they thought she called the cops and i kept denying it) b4 they realised I called the cops "oh you did good, honestly she deserved it". Then when they find out i called the cops they say stuff like "oh what u gonna do now? Call the cops on me. Do it i dare you" "wow if u didn't call the cops (cos my mum would get mad often after I called the cops) mum wouldn't have gotten mad at xxx". My mum has said hurtful things like oh I wish you would die, I wish you weren't born and today she said i wish you died after I gave birth to you. A month ago I went on holiday with my mum and she was like beforehand im scared of what u will do to me. My father forces food on my plate and if I dont eat it he will say I am starving myself (cos i once threw away raw half cooked pizza in the bin) and if i dont eat in front of him he thinks i am starving myself. Cos of that if i hadn't eaten infront of him he would js sit on the end of my bed and my sisters said to me "if dad or anyone dies it will be ur fault". He (in the past) would always run to help me when me and my sister were fighting and would hit my sister and not me even though i didn't ask for it (the help) and now my sisters hate me. One of my sisters calls me almost every day a bitch, hoe, sket, idiot, retard, demented and other rude insults (and that she doesnt like how i chew even tho inchew with my mouth closed). My eldest sister always blames me if makeup gets on her stuff(shoes, books whatever) and that im ruining it. I hadn't touched her stuff only in the past when I was young (6 years old) i would hide her phone (like a playful game) and she'd obviously found it easily. If anything of hers go missing she screams my name tells me not to talk to her ever again and that our relationship is dead. She then strikes a conversation 2 days later. One time my eldest sister was on her bed and I was by her door (like 60cm away from her) she loses her lip balm thats on her bed and then blames me. Ik its late to mention this but I have autism and adhd so js seeing her get mad when its logically impossible I set down (in smth like a daze) she drags me out very mad and then I fall asleep on the floor. I fell asleep and when I wake up im by a radiator I wasn't near also sitting upright. I was still thinking when my dad shows up and smacks me on the face saying go to sleep and also conversed with my sister saying I might be possessed and that he'd call the cops on me. The next day he says hes sorry and that my mum who I believe was sleeping downstairs was stressing him out about me sleeping on the floor and thats why he slapped me. He asked to forgive me and I could barely say yes so I nodded my head. Ok and my eldest brother he would threaten to break windows a few times when he was mad. My eldest sister unfairly treats me and my sister and favours her more to me. I told my eldest sister a secret I dont understand other peoples emotions properly. I tell her to keep it a secret and idk when but she told my other sister who then mention it and say im a psychopath and demented. My eldest sister would get mad when i swore at my sister but when my sister said a bunch of insults to my face for like half an hr in front of the eldest she demands no apology. And honestly theres a bunch more but im mentally exhausted and js wanna finish this off during my exam season for high school my sister would say almost every day I hope you fail. I got my exam results back and my entire family want to know what i got and I haven't mentioned it to anyone. My eldest sister is like tell me I won't tell anyone but when she told my sister my secret i can't trust her. And at the end of the day I have depression, anxiety, eating disorder (i starve myself).

Apologies for any spelling mistakes, grammar errors or anything like that but I would js like to say if u have any questions for clarification or whatever js comment and I'll reply.