how do i get over my ex?

i genuinely miss him so much everyday. and we are still friends but i just can’t talk to him bc of how badly i wish we were dating. i feel so obsessive and i don’t wanna be. i don’t know how to move on. i just wish he loved me again and would visit me one day. i feel like a disappointment bc i dont have the guts to tell my mom we aren’t together though we’ve been apart for months. i just wanna be good enough for someone. i just feel like useless weight pulling him down now.